Feeling good - Part 2

I have noticed that I am not in the same state of mind all the time. Some of the states I have identified are: composed high, composed normal, composed low, disturbed high, disturbed normal and disturbed low.
What does each state of mind stand for and mean to me?
Composed High - This is a desirable state but only when I am working seriously on something. It is a state where I am highly focussed with desired levels of concentration. At the same time I am highly composed being aware of self and the environment I am in. I am thinking cogently, intelligently and laterally with full control of emotions. This state may not be desirable always. It may be quite intensive. Composure and emotions may go out of control. Examples of situations when this state is desired are - playing badminton or cricket esp competitively, conducting workshops, taking an exam like GMAT, in interviews, etc. Example of where I was in this state and had been successful is my 12 std pre-final Mathematics exam. I could solve some complex problems effortlessly while the rest of the class struggled.
Composed Medium - This is a another desirable state. Most of features are similar to those of Composed High but at lower adrenaline levels. I still have the focus but I am a bit more relaxed. This probably is the state I should be in most of the times and change to a higher gear when needed i.e. to Composed High. The best example of when I was in this state is at the beginning the cricket match on 16th Aug. I may be seem dull to others but I am really in a nice cool spirit feeling good about myself and the entire world.
Composed Low - This is an undesirable state. I am really dull here. Though I am not disturbed or febrile about anything I am low. I am probably too relaxed and lazy not feeling like doing anything. I may feel like taking a hot shower, go for a run or so, may be a shag and a nap! Its important I find ways to come out of this quickly and move into the other two above states. Example is when I was dull after Kiran's birthday night and Sireesha got very upset about it.

Disturbed High - A very undesirable state. I am not in control of my thoughts and emotions. I am not focussed and will make a lot of errors in whatever I am doing. Say in badminton I would be committing too many unforced errors and would be cursing myself. In situations that I cannot comprehend I may slip into this state. Another example is when I may be facing counter arguments or stiff resistance to my opinions. There may be a thin line between the Composed and this state. I need to find ways to firstly be cognizant that I am in this state and secondly to go back to the two desired states. I suppose getting back to the Composed Medium state first could be a better choice. Move to the Composed High after I am in Composed Medium for a while. Example of when I got into this state for a while was over an argument about the aptness of booking a formal cricket ground and proposing to play with a tennis ball. Some of the symptoms when I am in this state are feeling helpless, feverish, raised voice, abrasive and aggressive rather than assertive and cogent.
Disturbed Medium - An undesirable state for sure. I am disturbed but the situation I am in is not of high importance. I may not need to respond or correct myself immediately. Possibly when I am on my own and not in a group. I fall into this state when I lose my focus and leave my mind to wander freely. This takes me to some unwanted unnecessary thoughts that consume a lot of my mind energy. Also I can say that I am in this state when I am in conversations with others but not in control of myself in thought and emotions. I tend to say more than I need to say and get into speaking mode than in the listening mode. I should be in the listening mode which probably means that I am more in control of the situation and in Composed Medium state.
Disturbed Low - This a very undesirable state as well. This is when I am really sad and not know what I am doing as well. I am hurt emotionally as well. So I am unhappy with emotional imbalance, totally ruffled and doing the wrong things. This state is primarily dominated by emotions and disappointments. Firstly I should not get into this state and if at all I get there I should come out soon and let things not go worse. Example of this is when I used to go upset with my parents, Sireesha (in Paris), etc.